Sunday, April 28, 2013

Will she or won't she? Not even she knows for sure.

My niece Amy asked when there was going to be another blog post.  Here's the answer.

My engine's been running on a low-grade depression for a while now.  By "low-grade", I mean a 4 on the 1 to 10 scale.  As comparison, my depression was a 19 on that scale when it was really bad, and that was only when I could focus enough to figure out how bad it was.  So 4 isn't bad.  I can function; however, it's hard for me to write creatively at this level.  I don't need to go into what's causing it.  I know it's either going to get better soon or I'll call my therapist for help.

I've also been working a lot of hours.  The fibro and the mystery disease already sap my energy and now, with working so much, I'm just too tired to think about writing or actually do it.  I think that will also get better.

Another thing is that I'm not much motivated to do this because there's not that many people who read the blog and I only have 9 followers (my own fault for not doing better promotion).  It's discouraging, to be truthful.  There's not much to get me excited about doing this.

I'm not sure I'm going to keep blogging.  That's what I'm taking time to decide now.  When I started the blog, it was to help me be accountable for losing weight and for writing.  Then, it turned into being a comedy routine, occasionally punctuated with a thoughtful essay or two.  I lost focus on what it was supposed to be, but the original intent then turned out not to be what I wanted anyway.  So I need to decide (1) if I want to blog, (2) what the focus will be (if there actually is one), (3) do I want to set up my own website instead of staying on Blogger, and (4) am I willing to do the work to promote the blog?

I'll let you know once I figure it all out.  Thanks for reading.

(I don't mean to be rude, but I'm cutting off comments for this post because I really need to figure this out for myself.)